you leave without cues
like dust blown by the wind
the inside part of me goes
floating on the waves of my days
I love you best friend
longing to share
like stars with the night
like loyal dews to the dawn
every single moment has jealousy
how happy you are up there
floating among the clouds without load
while me….
collecting second by second
counting time to be with you




to my dear faraway friend

cry  my friend… please cry
release the tightness of the chain
let the tears of sadness
dried by wind to bring your pain away

cry  my friend… please cry
release the heavy of burden
let the tears rolling away along with pain
dried by wind to take your sadness away

send your longing through prayer and praise
to purify your languishes soul
yet keep the beauty of memories
dancing in the deep of the soul

wish I could shoo your pain
wish I could stop it engrave your chest
wish I could be there for you
but you are too far away to be reached
I could only pray
‘Dear God …,
please give strength and fortitude
to my dear faraway friend…
for I believed
the trials that given would not exceed her ability.’



the secret of life
too complicated to understand
too high to be touched
too deep to be withdrawn
however ended in death
- nafaz-


good old friends

42 years have passed
your hair has become gray
mine as well
my face was wrinkled
your’s too
you changed, I changed…., we all changed

a60only one thing that has not changed
the silliness of our behavior




 TM1in togetherness…
pain and lonely lost in laughter
we are grandma and grandpa
who momentarily forgotten age and grandchildren


a64let’s keep the rope of this friendship
with love and understanding
and maintain the value and meaning
to always be tightly bound


good  old friends


one day
when no one cares to wipe my tears
when no one comes to ease my pain
when no one can be invited to reminisce
when I feel left out
be friendly with loneliness
I knew you will be there for me

Hopefully we could be best friends
until we should start all over again as new friends
when senility force us to ask over and over…  “who are you?”

I thank God who has given the opportunity to meet and get together with good old friends,
and thank you for being my wonderful old friends



dedicated to my high school friends
  SMA PSKD 1,  graduated on 1972


“Learn to be a good friend because one day when you look aside he may not be there anymore”.
– meiro –

the missing smile




it has lasted long enough

moaning and sighing resignedly

like a melody …. but sounds poignant

the time almost stopped

“stay with me Ning” I said

but the death pressed his chest

unplug his suffering

and there’s a smile on his face

which been missing for nearly two years

“goodbye Ning”

might be the best … for you

and I turned away

took the pictured of your last smile

where the stories of our friendship stored


Dedicated to my best friend ‘Ning’,
who fought against throat cancer for almost two years.
Sad of losing you but also relieved that you freed of pain.
You will always be in my heart my dear…. always.


– mei –