to my dear faraway friend

cry  my friend… please cry
release the tightness of the chain
let the tears of sadness
dried by wind to bring your pain away

cry  my friend… please cry
release the heavy of burden
let the tears rolling away along with pain
dried by wind to take your sadness away

send your longing through prayer and praise
to purify your languishes soul
yet keep the beauty of memories
dancing in the deep of the soul

wish I could shoo your pain
wish I could stop it engrave your chest
wish I could be there for you
but you are too far away to be reached
I could only pray
‘Dear God …,
please give strength and fortitude
to my dear faraway friend…
for I believed
the trials that given would not exceed her ability.’

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mei

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the secret of life
too complicated to understand
too high to be touched
too deep to be withdrawn
however ended in death
- nafaz-
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a delivery for you

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 YOU …. yes YOU

the one who are reading this

through posts we know each other

through comments we talking to one another

then a friendship rope connected

sharing and supporting

for the sole purpose “cares”

and here I am with a pocket full of love

to delivered to you

please open the door of your heart

and deign to accept

if you say yes

then I will feel better

but if you say never

it will break my heart forever

Happy Valentine’s day

with love,

– mei –

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the value of a friendship

on a sheet of paper you wrote a confession

on that paper you beg for my forgiveness

then I started to wept in the valley of frustration

mourn for the broken of a friendship

it’s vanished just because of the lust and ego

although my tears will not be able to pay for this disappointment

but it’s too precious to wept for the infidelity

I cried because this friendship does not meant anything to you

“Oh God, I’d rather lost my lover than my best friend!”

me and a pen

there are so much to say
and to disclosed
but it just spinning in my head
don’t know how to expressed
my chest feel burdened
my head feel heavy
seems the time goes so slow
and creating boring days

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suddenly you came
brought me a pen
I start disclosing the feeling
while you just sit still and watch
slowly my chest felt loose
my head seems mild
but when I realize
you were gone
leaving me and the pen

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– mei –

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falling snow

looking far down the road
waiting for him to come
through the window I see
the coming snow
falling up on the pine leaves
it falls everywhere
as my eyes can see
I ran out and touch it
enjoying the sense of its cold
for the first time
beautiful

the cold began penetrating
but he has not come yet
I wondering
would he be the same as I knew
would he be nice as online
and another more… “would he”
I sudden see a figure
walking towards me
my heart begins to beat
it might be him
I shyly smile
he staring at me and smile
open his arms and say
“come I’ll keep you warm”

tutup

tutup

Friends

gathering..,  ongoing time filled  with
snacking,  drinking,  smoking,  joking,
laughing, get drunk, dawn is coming
getting tired, all sleep, then
morning arrived,
and night
passed
filled
with
joy
and
familiarity
everyone was happy
friend in need is friend in deed?

good bye best friend…, good bye

that beautiful face
carved by wrinkles of pain
her enchanting smile vanished
change to groans
those beautiful brown eyes
planted of suffering
she
sometime conscious
of the heavy suffer
but it’s not enough
to make as reason
nor to decline
or discouraging spirit
like a whip plash
lash to keep moving
keep continued
fighting and struggling
against the pain
even it’s the last chance
still has to be reached
then she try again
with her last strength
suddenly just stop
weakly eyes tearing
seems  she realized
the battle cannot be won
in despair feel no pain
distance……, breaths
weakly breath
silence surrounding
I have no heart to tell
But it should be told
my friend you tried so hard
with no regret no doubt
but
if you have to …., please go
the angels will be by your side
taken you in rest and peace
till we meet again
good-bye best friend…..good bye