maybe…., this time

if we could see each other again
wishing words would come to tell you
though I’ve only known a few
I need you

If we could see each other again
wishing words would come to tell you
though I’ve only known a few
I love you

we know from the start
we belong to each other
but we were made mistake along the way
we lost what we both had found
and we were too blind to see

If we could see each other again
I wish maybe this time
we won’t be like strangers
we won’t be apart
we won’t say good-bye

***

– mei

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a sonnet of painful


the loud sound of blast
broke the silence of the night
splitting the dream
start creating the sonnet of painful

innocence babies crying
children screaming bewilderment
they could only crying and screaming
since they are really in frightened

debris everywhere, flame here and there
bodies lay bathed in blood
bodies lay lifeless
some moaning, some silent

some hurt
some dead
some became defectively
some became orphan

tears will not be enough to pay for grief
regret will not return the dead
the guilt has to live tormented
in this world and hereafter

 

***

– mei –

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and…..I


and…. I could do that too
as same as you did to me
perhaps we could have the same wound
but not the same suffering
perhaps we could miss each other
but not the same loss
I know you could forget me
but I couldn’t forget you
to you I’m just a history
but to me you will always be in my memory

 

***

– mei –



the victim


I’m not a toy
I’m not goods
to fight for

you said I am the fruit of love
you said I am the rope of love
is that true?

now where is the fruit and the rope?
is it vanished along with love?
then what am I

your ego and arrogance
had buried your love
ignored my existences
and let me buried in misery

If I could choose
I’d rather not to be born

***

– mei –

 


 

the second chance

at a crossroads
he stood confused
grappling against pleasure and evil
doesn’t know where to go
lost direction led him astray
nobody to ask for
he cried for help
nobody cares
While trying to find the way out
He looks into his self
then realizing
it was wrapped in the mud of sin
the empty soul
cried out in desperation
lament the stigma that tightly binds
For letting him fall into an object
drifting along regrets
when drowning in despair
He suddenly realizes

there are hands lifting him
out of the humiliating body
he just helpless surrender
but  tightly holding
then he grateful
for the second chance given

a fact of losing

 sit still
facing at the tomb
his eyes saying
he is in pain
he walk
leaving the tomb
although his heart saying
to keep staying

he has to walk
and face forward … even
has to carrying the wound
which sharply divide his inner
regret of losing
excruciating his chest
but he has to keep….  move on

feels like
the road is so long and lonely
to walk on alone
no hand to hold
nor smile and laughter
disappeared
behind the barrow

***

– mei –

a seed of hope

 the empty stare tells

that the half of soul has been broken

as twig which dries by the sense of longing

which falls on the land that barren by disappointment

the passion flies along the wind of remorse

leave the broken petals of love flower

which strewn on the mat of waiting

that has been shabby by the lament of suffering

now just a seed of hope that remains

hiding under the leaves that rotten by sorrow

let tears of sorrow to watered

until the flower of love bloom again


					

poem of a waiting in vain

The orange twilight starting to fade
crawling in weak and weary
It slowly disappears from sight
mixing with dark turned to black

The atmosphere of lonely visiting
accompanied by dog’s howling to knitting the night
arousing  the reverie broke the feelings
restless and confusion  immediate erupt

Bamboo leaves are sighing
sliced by the blade of hope
expressing the longing that can’t restrained
engraved the pain of the splitting soul

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Just to release a remorse
of a hope that haven’t come true
the song of love ripping the heart
because of the uncertainty waiting

The moon is crying the stars lamenting
singing the sonnets of lonely
wind sighing twigs crackling
creating poem for a waiting vain

 

 

Known and unknown

I wish I knew
when time will arrive
leave me on my own
to pass through this life

I wish I knew
when will you go
It will change
everything in life

If I don’t know
when will time arrived
will I be on my own
to pass through this life

If I don’t know
when will you go
will all be changed
everything in life

Which I don’t know
would all be the same
unchanging as before
I do not know
none of differences
between
known and unknown
all had been there
Recorded in writing

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Look into our selves

flood
landslide
tsunami
eruption
many more disasters
come and go
Haiti, Indonesia, Australia, Brazil
and others
corpses everywhere
echoed of wailing cries
is this a sign of apocalypse
or
is the earth getting older
why this all happened
no one knew

except look into ourselves
ask to our selves
Of any mistakes we’ve made
did we made enough
for our world
or just took in greed
and
ignore the responsibilities
it’s a cue
to straighten ourselves
to clean
inner and outer
to clean
heart and soul
of anger and spiteful
of greed and hypocrisies
to aware
that
it’s also has demands
from us to be fulfilled
keep sustainability
for the sake of human being
the sky is above
the earth is beneath
carry both in good
by being good
no more cries
no more corpse
no more loosing
among us and  our earth



W a t e r


droplets
glimpse by the sun
so beautiful

sparkling like diamonds
such as morning dews
such as tears
cold, satisfying thirst
life depending on it
we need it
we need them
keep and cherish it
Maintain sustained
just use to taste
no water
no life
Neither do we
please
do not let it upset

gathered  drops
become large and lots
creating  flood
rumbled, crashing blindly

harm and kill
please
cherish and grateful
to the nature
on behalf of
our children

our grandchildren
and the next generation
to their future

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good bye best friend…, good bye


that beautiful face

carved by wrinkles of pain
her enchanting smile vanished
change to groans
those beautiful brown eyes
planted of suffering
she
sometime conscious

of the heavy suffer
but it’s not enough
to make as reason
nor to decline
or discouraging spirit
like a whip plash
lash to keep moving
keep continued
fighting and struggling
against the pain
even it’s the last chance
still has to be reached
then she try again
with her last strength
suddenly just stop
weakly eyes tearing
seems  she realized
the battle cannot be won
in despair feel no pain
distance……, breaths
weakly breath
silence surrounding
I have no heart to tell
But it should be told
my friend you tried so hard
with no regret no doubt
but

if you have to …., please go
the angels will be by your side
taken you in rest and peace
till we meet again
good-bye best friend…..good bye

 

Missing you

 

whisper of yearning caressing,
as if you are here
the longing builds
like a storm on the horizon
tears falling
like rain with no doubt
tearing the heart that scratched
of losing you……,

as I watch you walk away,
I screamed and begged
“please…….. take me with you!”
but you keep walking away
the chains of lonely bind me again
waiting for you to release
and take me with you……,
though just a small part of my heart

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dying…….,

My eyes  see
don’t ask what I saw

 

My ears hear
don’t ask what I heard

My lips kiss
don’t ask who had been kissed

My hand holds
don’t ask who was held

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my eyes, ears, lips and hands ….., they are still at placed
and I….,
I am here … but could not feel it
perhaps I’m on way to find eternity

***

– mei –